Trauma

I’ve had a short fuse all week, and I’ve been feeling like shit. All I’ve wanted to do is sit on the couch and watch baseball. I had one of those “Doh” moments this morning on my bike ride that forced me to realize last Saturday’s dog attack had traumatized me far more than I had realized.

I’d been riding for an hour, and was noodling through the neighborhood near home, not particularly fast, when I spotted a big grey dog in a front yard to my right. The dog’s owner was out with him, but he had no collar on, and he bounded into the street to check me out. He seemed totally friendly, but my heart was nevertheless in my throat. I hit the brakes, unclipped from my pedal and stopped dead in the street to face off the dog. The guy called the dog back into his yard, but I told him I wouldn’t start riding again until he had ahold of the dog so it wouldn’t chase me.

So I’m traumatized far more than I realized by the sudden violence of the attack, and by the continuing reminder of Sadie moping around the house (she’s better, but she’s still kind of a bloody mess). We take her to the vet today to get the drain out. Lissa said she could take care of it, but I really wanna go.

Baseball

I was doing some arithmetic the other day and realized that, despite not being a sports fan, sports on telly takes a significant chunk out of my life. But there is a gentle pleasure on settling down on our big new couch and blocking out responsibility for the leisure of a ballgame.

In the spring, it’s the Giro d’Italia, the Grand Boucle in the summer, then the fall is crammed with the Vuelta and championship baseball. To fully enjoy, one must have a team, which makes the Giro less important (U.S. Postal doesn’t race it), the triumphs of Cancer Boy an obvious choice for Le Tour, and the U.S. Postal armada a sentimental favorite in the Vuelta.

For fall baseball, things get more complex. To first order, I have a weak Yankees bond built when their games were the only thing I could get here in Albuquerque on the radio. I grew up a Dodger fan, a fact that makes my mother cringe when I now say anything suggesting I might approve of anything the Yankees do. But it is what it is, and being a Yankee fan makes things easy every fall. This year, however, there is the sentimental Cubbie thing, and I feel a certain envy for those diehards. A few years back, I made a personal pilgrimage to Wrigley to see Baseball, and it was in all fairness a religious experience. And my sister, now living down the road from Fenway, has been speaking of the Red Sox in ways that give me pause. So perhaps….

Given the pressures of my busy life, I was feeling a little bad about the time lost to the couch for sport, but Lissa looked at me sitting there the other night all relaxed and happy watching a ballgame and pronounced it a good sight to see. So I guess I’ll be parked for a few more hours over the next couple of weeks.

Saturday Night in the Animal ER

When last we met, our intrepid hero John was paying a Friday night visit to the emergency room with his father, seeking assurance that Dad’s heart pains were not cause for alarm. They were not, paving the way for fresh adventure!

Feeling as though the snapshot of humanity he saw Friday night at the ER was insufficient, John spent Saturday evening at the emergency animal hospital while doctors there tended to his beloved pooch Sadie after her cruel and untimely victimization by an untethered hound.

OK, I’m making fun here, but the weekend pretty much completely sucked from about 4:45 p.m. Friday through 8 a.m. Sunday. It has had moments of improvement since them, but it still sucks.

Sadie and I out running Saturday evening at dusk, past a thrift store parking lot about a mile from the house, assholes there hanging out in the parking lot with two dogs. The whole thing was over in an instant – big bad dogs jumped Sadie, Sadie went down, big bad dog sank its teeth into Sadie’s right shoulder (going for the throat but thankfully missing), I kicked big bad dog off cowering Sadie while the second dog orbited thinking this was some sort of game. Someone tried to apologize, John yelled very bad word in describing bad dog and suggesting that perhaps tethering it might be wise in future.

It wasn’t until we got home that I realized how badly Sadie was hurt. The big wounds were beneath her fur, and they were punctures so they weren’t bleeding a lot. But they needed to anesthetize her at the doggie emergency room in order to shave, clean and stitch her and put in a drain, so she had to spend the night.

When we picked her up this morning, she was still woozy from the anesthetic, but she wouldn’t lay down, she just sort of wandered around the house like a stumbling drunk. She’s finally sleeping, hard and sound. She’s an ugly bloody mess.

Too many stories in the doggie ER – the woman with a Jack Russell trying to give birth, but a puppy was stuck (and the woman’s too-cliched cowboy husband making macho jokes that were embarassingly insensitive, and the woman’s baby in a car seat, almost an afterthought), the quiet mother with her son and a listless cat in a sort of big Tupperware bin (“Mom, where’s my book,” the boy says, finally walking over and grabbing it out of her purse), the guy with a big black lab that had been hit by a car, but he had no money, couldn’t pay, and the sad conversation that followed. And then the elderly couple this morning, when we came to pick Sadie up, the women red-eyed like she had been crying, or hadn’t slept, or both, paying the final bill and making arrangements for the cremation. That was the saddest moment of all, yet there was warmth in the exchange: The clerk explained at the body would be sent to the company that does the cremations, the woman wanted some some reassurance that the company was, I don’t know exactly, “good” or “reputable.” “They’re great,” the clerk told her. “They’ve dealt with a couple of animals of mine.” It was a little moment of extraordinary humanity.

The bike ride seems almost like an afterthought, but it was as fine as a bicyle ride can be. Jaime and Steve are coming up on their respective Ironman races, so they both needed to spend six hours on the bike today. I had no such intentions, so they started at Jaime’s house, rode the hour to my house and picked me up. We headed east into the canyon and up through the mountains over Tijeras pass. It’s a weird sort of pass, without an obvious top, but rolling up along old Route 66 we finally hit the point where you can look east and see beyond the mountains. It is where the mountains end, and the great flat middle of the central United State begins. It was a perfect fall day – warm enough for shorts and short sleeves, but cool enough to be perfectly pleasant. The wind was from the west – a tailwind up the canyon as we climbed, a brisk headwind coming back down. Those canyon winds are notorious among local cyclists, and this was the perfect sort of day for that particular ride, the sort of day for which bicycles were invented.

Coming back down into the wind, we flew. I took one turn at the front, but basically Jaime, who is the strongest, did all the work, bulling into the wind as Steve and I tucked in behind. You can see in Jaime’s body language when the noodling is over and the serious riding begins, and at that moment you have no choice but to latch onto his back wheel or say goodbye.

That descent was a moment, however long it lasted (a half hour to get down through the canyon? I’ve no idea, no earthly idea), of perfect concentration, meditative, nothing left in my mind but the flood of immediacy that the ride itself presented. This is why I ride.

Oh, and did I mention our DSL has been down all weekend? Did I mention this weekend sucks?

Friday Night in the ER

Across the hall, the woman laying in hospital gown is holding an ice pack on the right side of her face. She’s talking to someone just out of sight in the room with her, and now she’s gesturing with both hands, trying to explain what happened. Each hand is one of the cars, and in the midst of the gesture, they hit, T-bone style. Looks like she’ll be OK. She seems stoically calm.

Next room things aren’t so sanguine. Another car accident. The woman who was driving, maybe the mom, maybe not quite old enough, is also holding ice to her face. She’s standing. She’s not the patient. She tries to explain to the other people there how the accident happened, and she breaks down. She thought he’d stopped in front of her, but then he didn’t stop….

People come and go, until the nurse has to come in and tell them there’s a limit of two people plus the patient in the room. “They’re just too small,” she says. We look around our room, do a quick count, figure out who should leave when she comes in to tell us the same thing, but she never does.

After a while, they say they want to take her (we still haven’t seen “her”, the patient across the hall) to x-ray to see if any of the bones around her eye are broken. They wheel her out, sitting in a tipped up wheeled hospital bed, and it’s a teenage girl. Her face is all bloody, and she’s scared. “Daddy, come with me,” she says, and her Dad tries to find a way to walk alongside the rolling bed, but there’s no room, he’s got to be either in front or in back, and the struggle to figure out how to stay close to his daughter seems too much for me to bear.

As for us, Dad’s OK. The chest pains that brought him (and us) to the ER on a Friday night were not a heart attack, and they couldn’t find anything else wrong. He’s gotta go back in first of the week for more tests, but our little drama seems so manageable in comparison. He’s home taking it easy, I took Lissa and Nora out for ice cream, and the people across the hall are probably all still there.

Open Access News

If free and open source software is a powerful engine of intellectual growth in computer technology, then free and open access to things like biomedical and scientific endeavors can only be a good thing.

Academicians have long been about the free and open thing, but in sometimes ambiguous and/or contradictory ways. Found a fabulous blog about this today, the Open Access News.

October

It is now October, and the lofty windes make bare the trees of their leaues, while the hogs in the Woods grow fat with the falne Acorns; the forward Deere begin to boe to rut, and the barren Doe groweth good meat: the Basket-makers now gather their rods, and the fisheres lay their leapes in the deepe.
– Breton, 1626

Michaelmas

Today being Michaelmas, is the day we would pay our quarterly rent with a goose.

This is one of those marking points, coming on the heels of the equinox – fall harvest, perhaps, in a time when we were more directly attached to the seasons and their implications for our food supply.

We have no goose, alas, but Nora suggested we could throttle one over at the university Duck Pond and bring it home for dinner. The Michaelmas goose is said to be good luck, so this might be worth trying, though I am rather urban and apart from the goose-killing and -gutting skills of my genetic ancestors. Perhaps I’ll just have a turkey sandwich for lunch and call it good.

I wonder if the mortgage company would accept a dead goose in lieu of our monthly check?

Underdogs

What is it about underdogs in sport?

Two great sporting underdog stories playing out this weekend.

In American League baseball, the Detroit Tigers play two games this weekend against the Minnesota Twins. They’re one shy of what they call, on their own web site (actually the official MLB Tigers web site) dubious history – the record for most losses in a season in modern major league history. Despite my natural affection for odd and superlative statistics, I’m rooting for ’em to win both and stay out of that particular section of the record book. They are my underdogs.

Meanwhile in the Vuelta a Espana, the quintessential underdog Isidro Nozal is on the brink of stealing away the great Spanish bike race from its rightful owner, Roberto Heras. I’ve been a Heras fan for years. He’s the little climber, and we love to love the little climbers, somehow underdogs as they cower in the pack among the big sprint boys on the flats, only to slip to the front and fly up the mountains when the pitch gets steep. Nozal is a boy, really, one of the youngsters of the peleton, a domestique who somehow found the jersey on his shoulders and rode like it belonged there, gritting up the mountains behind Heras’ dancing asssaults ever time things got steep and somehow holding on.

Mom’s rooting for Nozal, totally. I’m still hoping Heras can pull out magic today on the last steep climb they face, but a little part of me is cheering Nozal too. He’s our underdog.

Time to go ride the bike.